A new threat has emerged in our life.
A very very cute threat...
It’s been 3 years, 1 month, 29 days, 1 hour and like 12 seconds since the adoption of the White Beast of North Avalon into the nobel Leeder family of 4 humans.
For 11 months of the year she goes by the name of Coco...or Cocobear to her family. Her full name is Coconut Leeder and she was born in the form of a giant white Alaskan Malamute dog with fur as soft as…. like really soft fur, and a heart full of human obsession and love, with a belly that hungers for any food known to man.
The White Beast’s passion for her humans, has always been strong as was/is her ability to knock her small human siblings down with one swoop of her tail with a force stronger than the gale winds in the mountains of Narnia. Her size grew fast and although gentle in heart, her mountainous exterior grew quickly and stronger and her bond with her family was a force unlike anyone had seen before.
She could not be left alone…. like EVER!
The Queen Jayde, Coco’s human mother, and the King Steve her human father of the Castle of North Avalon tried everything to ease her anxiety, but the fear of her family never returning from their long and arduous 12 minute journeys to supermarkets and school pick up’s, was too much for Coco to handle, and this was the beginning of the metamorphoses of Coco into The White Beast of North Avalon.
December 1st was drawing near.
Like a werewolf on a full moon, Cocobear transformed into the beast, unknowingly to her family and even to herself.
Rapidly her fear of being alone increased. The White beast destroyed everything in the castle as she so desperately wanted to stay close to her family always...like even when they went to the bathroom...seriously...it got awkward...a lot. A cry at the door was heard by anyone who dared close the door, and it was no whimper. It was like no noise ever heard before. The Queen was startled when she first heard the sounds coming from under the door as she tried desperately to brush her teeth alone in the bathroom one late November morning. She thought her beloved White Beast had been injured, but alas, it was just the white beasts desperate cries for her human mother to be visible...because bathroom doors are apparently very very scary to ginormous puppies.
It was soon discovered the anxiety the White beast had, was more than just a gentle worry for being left at home. It was. INTENSE.
As the first decorations were carefully and lovingly added to the first Christmas Tree that Coco would ever lay eyes on, her very own decoration of a polar bear that she so closely resembled, was placed lovingly by her prince brother Iggy, and she licked it with curiosity. An uncertainty spread throughout the castle. For shoes had been eaten, and books annihilated, toy bears insides spread far across the castle. What future did the decoration that lived amongst the Christmas tree of the castle hold?!
One night as the Family spent Christmas cheer with friends they arrived home to the castle to what could only be described as a heartbreaking massacre. A family of Cardboard covered reindeer had been the victims. The family of 3 had suffered deeply. Both physically and emotionally. The child reindeer had been killed by the White Beast powerful sharp puppy teeth. The mother was disabled with only one leg and deaf in one ear as her ear had been ripped off. The Father’s emotional scars of watching the horrific slaughter of his family before his eyes and not being able to do a thing because...well he’s cardboard. Meant only one thing... he wanted revenge. And so, they watched over the beast throughout the night and waited until the sunrise in hopes that the Queen would not be gentle with her punishment of her beloved Christmas decorations.
They were right.
The Queen was furious and told her village of the land of Instagram all about the destruction the beast had caused, and their support got her though her devastation as they told tales of other families with their own Christmas beasts in their own lands destroying their Christmas decorations. The Queen did the only thing she knew was right for everyone...every decoration was placed high on a shelf...The beast’s eyes almost looked sad as she placed them out of her reach.
Christmas saw other decorations murdered, and presents were also the victims of the beast torture. The first Christmas was cruel to the decorations, and the Queen told many tales of the beasts conquests to entertain her Instagram village to help the Queen’s family cope with the torment that was bestowed upon them.
It was exactly 3 Christmas seasons the White Beast of North Avalon arose with destruction. The Queen was victorious each seasons with less and less of her beloved decorations losing their lives. It was the love that the Queen and her family had for the Beast that got them through it every year. And even with the carnage and destruction, their love grew for the beast and the pain of the loss of decorations became less.
Until Christmas of 2015, when the Beast’s belly was full after a night devouring an entire house made of gingerbread. Legend has it, that you can still hear the screaming of the poor gingerbread people who lived inside. Their memory will never be lost, and their delicious house was never to be tasted by the humans of the North Avalon Castle for the scent of dog slobber, left no enticement to eat the remaining parts. The long lead up to the 3rd Christmas throughout the year, it was evident that the Beast needed a companion. As the summer drew closer, Her skin was raw from hot spots and allergies to fleas, combined with her anxiety of being left alone, and the time for a new friend (and vet visit) was drawing near.
The village local vet had said she needed a tasty chew to help ease her itching by protecting against fleas and paralysis ticks. For almost 3 summers she had endured hot spots from flea irritations and her anxiety, and all of a sudden her skin was not itching her, as her new Bravecto tasty chew which is the only oral chew she LOVES to eat, had stopped those irritating fleas and lethal paralysis ticks. And with the potential arrival of a new family member drawing closer, and the busiest season of Christmas for work for the Leeders, her Bravecto is the only oral chew to deliver 3 months’ flea and 4 months’ paralysis tick protection for dogs in a single tasty dose, Giving the family less stress knowing the Beast was safe from paralysis ticks and fleas, and this was looking to be the family's best Christmas yet. It was the only Summer and year the Beast didn't have hot spots thanks to no skin irritations from fleas thanks to her Bravecto protection.
2 weeks before the red suited jolly man with the white beard visited the Avalon castle to deliver gifts, After searching far and wide across the land of Sydney, a new friend was introduced to the beast as a potential dog brother. A sort of ‘trial’
His coat was of the same snow-white colour but his size was gigantic in comparison to hers. This new friend, was to be her male sibling if they were able to live harmoniously together in their castle with their family.
The White Beast and the white bear were not a perfect match. After a day of being together a colossal death match erupted within the castle between the Beast and Bear. The Christmas tree of the Castle was almost destroyed in the epic battle. Decorations, simply innocent bystanders were killed in the destruction of the fight and it was at that moment the Queen knew this was not to be their new family member. And so, he left to live in another land far away from the White Beast.
Christmas of 2015 was spent in the most wonderful way. The entire castle was alive with joy as the Queen and Kings family all came to spend the day together. The Queen’s Brother brought his own Puppy beast, and the dogs enjoyed a beautiful Christmas day with their family and they knew their next fur family member would need to be a puppy for Cocobear to boss around
They were unable to find the right puppy before Christmas, as a puppy for Christmas was the ultimate goal after their long search for the right family member throughout the year. Suddenly only a few day after Christmas the puppy they knew would be the perfect brother to Cocobear was found. A little bit late for Christmas, but to the Leeder family, he is still forever their Christmas Puppy. And he was meant to be.
Thor the wolf puppy who turned an already amazing Christmas into an even better one with his arrival to the Leeder Castle, was immediately loved by all. And it took only a few hours for Cocobear to clean her new sibling brother and sleep close to him.
By the new year Cocos skin was completely back to normal without an itch. (THANK YOU Bravecto seriously saved this giant fur monster from being uncomfortable through the year by getting rid of one of the things she’s allergic to. FLEAS) The White beast had hibernated into her soul almost immediately after the Big Bear had gone and the gorgeous Cocobear was back and not one decoration was lost and with the arrival of the new pup, the anxiety had subsided as well.
2016 will be the first of many Christmases with the Leeders completed family and the first ‘Official’ Christmas for the one year old German Shepherd x Husky Thor.
On the first eve of the beginning of the Leeder Christmas season at the Avalon castle, after the tree was decorated and the house was warmed with Christmas spirit, the house was quiet while the humans all in slumber, and a lone wolf, whose name is Thor 11 months of the year, quietly ate his first reindeer. The White beast emerged from Coco's soul and watched on with a grin. Her protégé made her proud. Her battles were only the beginning and she thought she had lost the war. A new threat has arisen. And the Queen’s roar was heard all over the land the next morning. A lone young wolf named Thor.
But even the death of another decoration reindeer could never ruin the magic both the White Beasty and the Young Wolf bring to the Leeder family in their castle at Christmas time.
It wouldn’t be Christmas without them…. or destroyed reindeer and stolen gingerbread houses inhaled by the Leeder family dogs.
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Oh it feels good to have my hands typing and trying to type as fast as my wild brain is running.
I've had to deal with a person I have known online for almost as long as I have been online which is almost 7 years, turn out to be quite a nightmare sending me hiddeous messages.
It's all just come to light really recently, and I'm both anxiety ridden but fueled by rage. I am not really the most angry person on earth usually, so its a different road for me to walk. I'm more of a burst of fire, then it just goes out super quick kind of gal.
I get over things 'usually' pretty quick. If I get the shits at Steve about anything(usually he is breathing too loud and its the day before my period and I lose it for a second) he knows to stay quiet for a few minutes because I get over it quicker than I got into that mood. So for anyone to make me feel angry for this long, you have to know that it's had some serious shit thrown at me.
I'm like super pissed. You wouldn't know it talking to me at all, because I'm not pissed off at the world, it's just one person. I know anger is not good to hold onto, but the angry is a much better place for my head right now, than fear and anxiety of thinking a 'whole lot' of people can't stand me. Shit gets done when you're angry. It won't last very long because I'm dealing with everything, and I feel very calmly in control. It's a strange way to be. I have the anxiety like usual, but that's because I'm tried and busy and all of this is exhausting, but I feel somewhat empowered.
This person offered to look after my dogs and housesit when we went away, so you can imagine my fire inside when I worked out it was her sending horrible emails to me, and random messages. She admitted everything to me in a message out of fear after I rambled one night on snapchat about how I would let my dog Thor find this person and sniff their crotch awkardly...she still doesn't understand my humour which is a huge reason she gets all fired up about me.
I plan on talking a lot more about it once its all dealt with, And honestly the cops have to deal with it all now because thats the best way to handle it. I can't go into details too much, but I want to say to everyone, if you have a weird feeling about someone, listen to your gut. I worked out who this person was before she ever admitted anything to me and before I worked it out, I had my suspicions about her and I even voiced that to a few people. Your guts and instinct know things. You may not be the super csi ninja detective that my friend Sonia and I are together, but your gut knows.
This person told me she won a huge amount of money, and at the time when I thought we were buddies, I was nothing but excited for her. She never really sounded excited about it, she just sort of got vague and I found it odd and thought maybe she didn't win the money and was trying to bate me for some reason. I now feel like she did it to try and 'expose me' somehow. I think she probably either thought I would tell everyone or ask her for money. I have no clue?!? She admitted to me that she only won $64 so I'm still confused why she even told me?!? But for whatever reason it didn't work.
She then kept unfollowing and re following me across all my social media platforms and I found it very odd, and immediately had my guard up, then one day she announced to me via private message on my instagram she was unfollowing because 'you're an idiot, goodbye forever'. I was shocked and told her so, and told her how upset I was as I thought we were buddies, then I immediately had suspicions about previous messages sent to me in similar tones.
Most people are real and lovely online in our LPL Gang, but I had my suspicions about her for a long time, but more "i find something odd and can't put my finger on it" feelings. There were many clues which I will reveal one day when I can. But I want you all to be careful, because its quite a serious issue and we need to make sure we are all safe.
There is something very empowering about it all but I'm really really tired emotionally right now. Strong as well, but pretty drained, because I am the perfect contradiction always . It's devastating to me because this person started this so long ago and I have physical problems now due to stress and have nerve damage forever because of it all and that makes me so angry, but I'm also relieved that not heaps of people are hating me. I mean they could, but those people go silently into the night, and the visions I have had of all these 'people' meeting and talking shit about me and laughing about me are fading because now I know that was just my anxiety and big imagination and one woman, not a collection of people.
And the world wants us to not give a fuck what others think, but I work hard to be a nice happy person, because I do really value the impact I have on the world and others and I don't understand why 'giving a fuck what others think', is a bad thing?!? I can still be myself and want everyone to like me. But this person stripped a lot of that away. I really actually do respect when a person just unfollows and doesn't tell me. It hurts to know that some people don't like you, but thats life and if they just go on their way without a noise then thats so fine. The last year I have felt like a bit of myself has been lost. I know I'm getting totes mature, but there is an element of fear inside of me due to this persons messages of hate towards me, because I thought it was a collection of people. So that will take me a minute to get through, but I do feel better knowing the truth. The Unknown is what isn't good for a person with an anxiety disorder.
But let me say this...it really annoyed me that Thor our almost 1 year old German Shepard x Husky, always barked at people going past the house, and is so protective of us all, and now, I am so proud to have an actual guard dog. Coco will fuck you up too if you hurt me, but its nice to know that my little(ginormous) Thory, wouldn't even let a fly near us in the first place and he listens to us when a person isn't a threat. Ive had some door knockers recently, and they are safe behind our gate, but I've told them I am observing how our dog reacts to strangers, when I don't interfere, and he is so in control and so protective and as soon as I tell him to chill and Coco shows him they aren't a threat he is sitting and keeping an eye on things.
He's sitting next to me as I type which he does every single night, and when I go to bed he will pop himself down on the pink rug next to Minty and not move until the morning. Or if you're the always fresh delivery dude and you accidentally open the gate at 3am to deliver a box of food, then he will bark like fucking mad and wake us all in in a fright. No one is getting through that door and soon no one is going to be able to get through my mental door to me either. Every message she now sends my heart races a little less, and my anxiety disappears a bit quicker. I feel myself getting over it quicker. But the rage is still there. A white hot fire. A calm fire. It's a fire that you wouldn't want to fuck with right now. I've started hypnosis and more acupuncture and that is helping and I will reveal more about that later...I wish I could send this woman the bill though. It pisses me OFF hardcore the amount of medical help I need already and NOW i need more. Does this fuckhead realise how much it costs other when they get all cunty online. The rage will fade. But my determination to not let one human being control my emotions will not. I refused to be different just because someone doesn't like me. Thats your problem..not mine sunshine.
Dont fuck with my magic...EVER!
I LOVE wrapping for Christmas. Like seriously LOVE it. I told Steve last night I need to invent a case that opens up like a tackle box but for all my wrapping paper 'bits' so that every night I can just open up my case of goodies and BAM everything is there. Right now its all in a big cardboard box. So not really very inspiring.
One thing I LOVE is finding printable tags for presents at Xmas. And there are SO many out there, so I've narrowed it down to some of my fav's.
Make sure if you're on Instagram you follow along with our christmas tag #showmeyourchristmaswrapping because I always pick someone to win a christmas present from Little Paper Lane HOORAY! Enjoy these little tags and I hope you're christmas wrapping looks magical.
Ok quick catch up....website was hacked, or broken, or the matrix swallow it or something?! I have no freakin' clue. All I know is that we went on a trip to the US, I wanted to document the whole thing and we couldn't even get on our website and then spent 5 weeks of travel trying to sort it out across the sea. IT.WAS.INTENSE!.
So we got back home end of September and Steve and I pretty much made a new website at weird hours of the night while trying to keep kids and dogs alive and run the shop and every single bit of Christmas stock arrived about 1-2 weeks after we got back...which was originally going to be fine, but not when you have to make a whole new website that also includes an entire POS system and online store...HARDCORE.
So we did what we always do and just did that shit at light speed,(hA ironically enough our last POS was called lightspeed and was a pain in the ass) and we got things happening quicker than ever before. But my blog had to take a back seat because I've been entering stock now for 7 weeks almost daily. Some days would be like 9 hours straight entering products which includes either taking photos, or downloading, getting descriptions, adding to the POS and online store. Each product can take a lot of time and I was getting 15 boxes of stock at a time. FUN TIMES.
So we have lots more we want to do with the website. We have big plans but we have to get through the retail crazy that has taken over our lives.
So what else has been happening?! Oh yeah, I totally found out one of my followers who was a friend for almost 6 years online turned out to be a massive hideous human that was sending disgusting messages to me and people I know or work with or just bought jeans from. So THAT was fun.
Almost passed out a couple weeks ago and found out my blood pressure is HIGH, which the dr was sure was from just all the 'busy' + online crazy lady + anxiety disorder and this time of year pressure. I wasn't feeling totally out of control but my body was telling another story, so Ive been doing acupuncture and hypnotherapy which is awesome and I had a weekend of being valium and pain killer doped just to have a 'break' and I'm meant to not get 'stressed' so yeah thats fun. I feel ok honestly, I just can't get too 'worked up' which is glorious to tell someone who owns a retail shop at Christmas to do ;)
I really really want to share more of our trip so I will sort out how the hell to use this blog and get some posts up. So bear with me while I sort my shit out. Ive never been away from my instagram so you can catch up on many stories there. Thanks for waiting...I got a lot of messages wondering if I would ever come back and of COURSE I would, I just needed to get an actual website and life smootherish. Hehe when will it ever actually be smooth I wonder haha